To my future-self

Dear future-self, I hope you’re not as tired, drained, exhausted and filled with disappointment and frustration as you were 2 years ago. You’re just 22 now, so it’s okay if you haven’t figure out everything yet, but I hope you’re feeling so much better now. I hope you had amazing experiences that helped re-shape who you are and led you to things differently. I hope people don’t seem to be disappointed and cruel as you pictured them 2 years ago. Did you finally start your own fashion blog? Do you get to take good pictures? Did you finally travel abroad? … Continue reading To my future-self

Today

Today was the worst day I’ve had since I started this semester. I never felt so alone in my life. I feel like everyone has abandoned me, even the people I was counting on the most. I can’t wait to leave this place. All I have seen here is pain and heartbreak. I don’t think I can take this anymore. I just can’t wait to leave and never see any of those people ever again. Continue reading Today

Braces

So I started wearing braces about 2 months ago. At first I was really irritated because I just couldn’t get used to wearing them and how they look, let alone the pain you feel initially due to how tightly held it is around my set of teeth. I would feel like I wanna pull my teeth out just to get raid of the unbearable pain. I couldn’t even eat anything. I had to live on just liquids for 7-10 days. In addition, I was feeling a bit insecure about how I look, but since it’s been a while, I’m perfectly … Continue reading Braces

It’s Now or Never.

Today marks my  very first day of my first attempt to write as a blogger and an influencer. Well, for starters, I’ve always had a thing for writing. Every now and then I write in my journal. Truth be told, I do not do it on a daily basis as my life is not that interesting. I tend to write through all my emotions. I write when I’m feeling over the moon. I also write when I feel like my whole world is collapsing and the only way to escape the pain is through writing my heart out. As for … Continue reading It’s Now or Never.

Unknown

I find comfort in knowing that people who I’ve cut out of my life are left with this version of me that simply doesn’t exist anymore. The memory and image of me that they have isnt who I am, and I’m happy that it’s that way. I’ve changed and grown and they wont ever get the chance to know the better version of myself that I’ve become during their absence. – Unknown Continue reading Unknown

Let things go.

My 2nd semester of the my sophomore year starts in a week. I can’t deny the fact that I am not the least bit excited. However, I won’t let what happened last semester drag me down. I promise myself I’ll try to be more hopeful and optimistic this semester regardless of anything. I will try not to panic and stress out about every single thing. I will just let things be. Whatever happens, happens. I must stop giving too much attention to things that are not worth of my time and energy. I need to let go of things I … Continue reading Let things go.

Internal War

I’ve been in a war with myself for 3 yrs now and I don’t know when it will end, but I feel like I cannot take it anymore. In fact, I’m slowly giving up on everything. It seems that there is only one solution to this non-ending struggle: Fix yourself. I have to save myself. Figure out what exactly is the issue with me. Stitching my broken piece back together and move forward and strive for a better, healthier way of living. I have no clue what I’m going through. I don’t know how to name it. But it seems like … Continue reading Internal War